There's Only Forgiveness

Now it’s in my head cuz they’re one step ahead it’s under my skin cuz it’s a little too thin and it’s in my heart just to tear me apart now you’re feeding off the aggression misery loves company and twisted forms of affection meet the human heart where hostility lives sometimes revenge feels so good that I don’t want to forgive and oh no thus the cycle continues it’s an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth until they’re all loose and you’re bitter and blind and numb you bark but can’t bite because you’re all gums and is justice ever done are you ever satisfied was it about justification or about pride stay away from the truth it might teach you things you don’t like my insecurity is out to prove that I’m right.

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I don’t want your apologies I don’t want restitution I want to hear you’re wrong but I don’t want resolutions I want justice but I don’t care for peace I don’t want to be bound but I don’t choose to be free I want for you what I feel inside of me and as soon as I know what that is I’ll share willingly.

It seems like it should be simpler but the human condition runs from wisdom and we’re not as bright as we give ourselves credit we repeat the same mistakes before we can regret it I tried to let it go but it held me in place there’s something better but I don’t like the taste bitterness is easier to swallow than the sting of grace memories can be neglected but impossible to erase they reappear in different ways and most of the time we’re not even sure of what it is that we hate we just follow our feelings into an unhealthy state of being with no plans of leaving.

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If I let this go then it’s all in the past and if I hold onto it I still have something to grasp what would we do if we had nothing to fight about out of the abundance of our heart we can run our mouths and tear each other apart and inflict pain and grief humanity wouldn’t know what to do if we had world peace so you can take the sign in your front lawn down it’s a nice gesture but mankind likes to go to war it’s in our fallen nature neighbors nations corporations races insecurity and hurt works well with retaliation but don’t woory it will be your turn soon so plot your revenge as you clean your knife wound and I forgive you is not and option it’s too uncomfortable it’s much easier to be miserable than vulnerable you can save that for the weak and the religious but there is no justice or no peace there’s only forgiveness